Fais-moi l'amour.

Safe.

2010-05-17T08:19:00.001-07:00

Take off all your envies, jealousies, unwillingness to forgive, selfishness, and fears. Wash away your hate and incesurities. You will find life is not actually as difficult as you think. Sometimes we get so wound up and defensive that all we do is point a finger at everyone in sight. Sometimes all it takes to bring yourself back down to a peaceful state, is a warm, sincere embrace. Open your arms, say you’re sorry, tell your loved ones that they are loved, and now close your arms around them, never let go. You are safe

2010-02-16T12:53:00.000-08:00

Shes the girl that always tries to laugh. The one that hopes for better days. The one thats unlike the rest. The one that won't give up on you. Shes the girl who spends her days smiling and her nights crying. The one that picks her self up everytime she falls.

2010-02-16T12:50:00.000-08:00

Breakfast at Tiffanys

2010-02-07T13:35:00.001-08:00

I have always coveted Holly Golightly's style and personallity. Since I first saw the movie I've also fallen inlove with Tiffany's.
www.tiffanys.ca

When I get married, I won't accept anything other than a Tiffany engagment ring. THE Tiffany engagment ring to be exact.

Jealousy, turning saints into the sea.

2010-01-28T22:58:00.001-08:00

Love sees only the good. Hate sees only the bad. The jealous must see all, for it is love and hate coexisiting.

It is a night spent crying, not only for its prey, but also for its own victim of a heart. It is the torture of love found, lost and found again. It is the preditor that comes after abandonment. To some, it is nearly a whole other person in your self. As a deadly sin, the punishment for the enveous was said to be having the eyes sewn shut, for they have taken pleasure in seeing the envied suffer. Perhaps a suitable treatment, perhaps not enough. Imagination still wonders, still sees what is desired, yet untouchable. Imagination may prove to be your haven, the place you can run to and have all you want; But it may also suffer from wrath, accompanied by your jealousy. All you may see is the life you can not live. The life you would give anything for. Do anything for. How far would you go for the release? Do you trust your own mind enough to keep you safe, or would you turn your back on sanity as well?

Love Addict.

2010-01-16T23:18:00.001-08:00

Love,
I never knew one word could be so heavy.
While it does make me fall occasionally under its weight,
and the scars won’t leave my blue knees,
I carry the word with the utmost pride.
There is nothing that could make me let go of this word.
This twisted, bewitching, sweet word.
I will hold this word in my tightest grasp.
Clench it, until I feel it as a part of me.
Yes, it is cruel and grievous at times.
But I continue to carry it,
for the ones who selfishly dumped it on me,
have become my entire existence.

Two inlove can make it, Take my heart and please don't break it.

2010-01-16T23:17:00.001-08:00

"Love is when you shed a tear and still want him, its when he ignores you and you still love him, its when he loves another but you still smile and say i'm HAPPY for you. When all you really do, is cry. " -unknown author.

Pick me up now, I need you so bad.

2010-01-16T23:16:00.001-08:00

I feel like an old broken doll. Beautiful and once loved, but thrown aside and forgotten for a pretty new toy. I wish some one would pick me up again, but I can't say i want to be played with anymore. Pity is starting to look more and more appealing. Maybe if I keep this painted smile on my face, things will go back to normal.

Hey Cassanova, Its Over.

2010-01-16T23:15:00.000-08:00

Is it too much to ask for a little sympathy? Please excuse me if i impose. You clearly have your heart set on winning; You clearly show no remorse. Theres nothing left to intensify. These ambers are now ice. So go on and show me how to live, since your everything I'm gladly not. Go on and make up my mind, since I apparently belong to you anyways. The only reason I'll be there when you fall, is because I'll be the one pushing you off the edge.

I'm TOO bitter to think of a creative title for this.

2009-12-31T02:06:00.000-08:00

Way to many things run though my head when the sun goes down. And luckily for me (not.), the sun sets way to early in the winter. I'm stuck now, awake at almost 5am, thinking of my choices, the people involved with them, and the things being left behind. I wonder who else is awake with a wondering mind right now. God I hope theres no wondering hearts.. Eventually I will wake up, and have no regrets. Eventually I will no longer fear what I do now, and I will be able to live again. I wish I had more patience. I wish that there was some way you could see into my mind, so this wouldn't be as horrible on my part. But at least your not the one who is up, at almost 5am, with the same thoughts in your mind, and clearly, not in your heart.

MAC Viva Glam Spring 2010 Campaign; Cindy Lauper and Lady Gaga.

2009-12-15T21:38:00.000-08:00

LOVE it.

She Wants Revenge.

2009-12-10T15:55:00.001-08:00

GREAT band, check them out. My favorite song by them is "Tear You Apart" :

in love with H&M.

2009-12-08T13:05:00.000-08:00

I love this dress. Just put a deposit on it and I'll be going back next week to pick it up! Should look adorable with lace tights and a nice cardigan.

let it snow let it snow let it snow!

2009-12-07T14:48:00.000-08:00

The first fall of snow has finally hit Niagara! Winter is by far my favorite season. I just love the snow, the holiday spirit, the colours and activities. Last winter my sister and I decided to go skating on the Rideau Canal in Ottawa, and we did, after 3 hours and a warm-up pit stop through the art museum. That's right, it took us 3 long freezing hours to find the entrance to the canal. This year, we are better prepared. The funny part is, the entrance was right where we started off and RIGHT BY OUR HOTEL. Oh, and just so you know, wearing stilettos on stone roads and side walks for hours, is not advised.

PEARLS are a girls best friend.

2009-12-04T20:33:00.000-08:00

I saw a picture of this vintage lace dress, and it immediately reminded me of a dress Kate Winslet as Rose wore in Titanic. I just threw this together out of boredom.

Some of my Sketches...

2009-12-04T19:54:00.000-08:00

Just some random things from my older sketch book. Once I get a new camera, I'll put more recent ones up, along with other things. I think I need to come up with some sort of project that can be followed on here... Any Ideas? Maybe I'll actually start sewing one of my dress designs, or make some neat jewellery.. We'll see !

My Rants From Fbook.

2009-12-04T16:58:00.000-08:00

SHES A MANEATER.

"Everyone told me that I would be over it, that it happens to everyone and they all turn out fine.
Well i may be "over" it but I am no where near the person I was or thought I would be. While it has only been 8 short months (and by short i mean lonely and painful) there isn't much that has changed in my eyes. I still see the same sickened smile in the mirror, the same mask. Someone told me that I needed to find someone I liked even more, and that would do the trick, so I tried. There wasn't one person that didn't remind me of it. I would always be happy at first. The shivers and butterflies all came back, the blushing, the laughter, the hope... I guess that's what lust really is. But it would only satisfy me for times short lived, and I had to end it; every time I had to end it. And now here I am, whatever I may be. But the best part is, I lost it myself and I ruined it, for both of us.

For both of us... HE will never feel the same again, never open up again, never have true love again, never be whole again. I'm not trying to be conceited, he really won't. Everything he felt, every time he cried, all the lost sleep, the pain, that was all me. It sickens me to think that I could have done this to some one I loved. He simply tries to find the next best thing, and replace it all, but she will never be what I was to him. I was his everything.

Every corny love song, movie cliches, love poems, they were all us. It was the happiest I have ever been, and the happiest he's ever been."

So my question is, will she ever be happy again, or will she always be a man eater?

AT THE TIP OF MY TONGUE, IS THE PRICE YOU WEREN'T WILLING TO PAY.

Can any of you HONESTLY say you that are real? Have you ever lied, cheated, back-stabbed or hurt someone you said you wouldn't.. couldn't? Oh, and the fact that half of you just answered no, makes you even more fake. At least I am going to truthfully say right now that I am not the person all of you think me to be. I probably put on a face to every single one of you at one point or another. Big or little, I have lied and god knows I will continue to. I am fake, to almost all but myself.

"Are you like a painting of a sorrow, a face with out a heart?"

Keep putting on that mask, but I know you better than you think.

GIVING UP IS THE HARDEST PART.

God, just thinking about it makes me sick. Never once did I ever think I would be where I am now, emotionally I mean. I just want to run away. Get away from everything and everyone here. If it were simple to leave it all, I would in a heartbeat. Unfortunately, that one thing will always keep me there, stuck and broken. There is only one more thing that could be done to completely ruin you, and that's leaving, so... I can't and I won't. Nothing is going right with school, home, friends, love and moving on. It's like I'm lost in a huge maze (labyrinth if you will ;]) that I can never get out of. Just more turns and conflicts, never a solution or way out. So I keep searching, and praying to find that exit. To either wake up from this nightmare, or to forever have sweet dreams.

"To die, to sleep;
To sleep; perchance to dream...
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come"

Oh man, I can't wait for the day to come sometimes.

WINGS.

I need some.

SMOKE AND MIRRORS.

So, the truth comes out... apparently.

You say I've changed, you don't know who I am anymore, you don't approve of my choices and I'm better than this. I'm sorry you feel that way, but better than WHAT exactly? I'll tell you what I believe I'm better than; I'm better than your views, I'm better than this place, I'm better than these people, I'm better than this pain, I'm better than waiting, I'm better than wanting. I am going to get exactly where I need to be. With out any ones help. I hope you are pleased with the life your choosing for yourself. Have fun in that bubble, while I break mine. You will never know what I know, see what I will and have seen or be who I am. No, I'm not insulting you, there is nothing wrong with your life per-say, but don't pretend to be someone that your not. I know your not, and its a shame the world doesn't know human kind better. Maybe one day everyone will see that there is more to the usual guidelines to life and more people will try something different. I've cleared the smoke, and broke the mirrors. Now, it's your turn.

"This journey of ours never ends
We will always pretend
Fighting not to let them win
And they’re falling into our illusion"

Gaga, Ou la la.

2009-12-04T16:10:00.000-08:00

SHOES SHOES SHOES

I'm sure everyone has heard Lady Gaga's newest song, Bad Romance. The songs premeire was at an Alexander McQueen show, which also premiered his "armadillo shoes" as seen in the music video. THEY ARE INSAINITY.

i had to throw these shoes in as well, so artsy right?!

this girl, has beautiful taste and is creator my favorite blog "Sea of Shoes" (http://seaofshoes.typepad.com)

My Winter Wants.

2009-12-04T15:54:00.000-08:00

Have you people seen all the military/band style jackets this fall and winter? I absolutley adore them and cannot wait to find one for myself!

I'm not sure how I feel about the thigh high boots for myself yet, but they do add edge to any outfit and are very sexy !

Breif Intro..

2009-12-04T13:59:00.000-08:00

My name is Samantha Nan. I'm a 17 year old girl living in Niagara Falls and oh lord is it ever boring. I have concluded that I have an obsession and addiction, which could no longer be ignored; thus my blog.

After hunting for what makes me TRULY happy, I have found that it is not love or men, not status, not success, not even chocolate, but fashion. It is crucial to my health that I find every piece of clothing I crave. Making love to fashion, is my greatest high.